Monday, May 4, 2009

a beautiful rose

Our family has had a rough couple of weeks with my parents car accident and the news that my grandmother had cancer. I flew down to VA Saturday morning, visited with her and my family and by Sunday morning she had passed. I am sad in many ways and for many reasons, but I am so angry at infertility and how it prevented me from having a baby while she was alive. We officially started the adoption process last year on her 85th birthday when we mailed our application off to Florida. I really really wanted her to share in the joy when we finally became a family. I never told her that we plan on using her name, Rose, as our child's middle name. I hate that I didn't say anything, actually we have kept our names to ourselves. I guess I figured she would be here to see it for herself. So Grandma, if you can read this, please know I love you very much. I know that you are with my little angel now.

4 comments:

Stevanne said...

So hard to write through tears . . . Grandma will always be with you and will take care of your angel child.

kimberly said...

i'm so sorry, julie.....and i pray so that you get to use that beautiful name and when you do, i am sure she will know. it is a beautiful name for a beautiful lady, i'm sure....and for a beautiful child.
thinking of you.
kimberly (jamie's mom)

Jamie said...

oh julie ~ i'm so sorry. tears are streaming and it reminds me of so many of my thoughts regarding my own grandma....
I'm so sorry for your loss.....my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Devon said...

Julie what a beautiful name! I will pray for you.