Thursday, January 24, 2008

a little miracle

Yesterday our friends Devon and Jason welcomed baby Gabriel Phenix into their lives. I am so sad that I am not in Ohio to celebrate with them. I met Devon through my RESOLVE support group. She has suffered multiple losses, more than any human being should ever have to. Gabriel is a true miracle. We are so happy for them and can't wait to get up there and love all over him. Just looking at their picture brings tears to my eyes and solidifies that I can't live my entire life childless. Which just means that we return to Ohio, enjoy some time as Greg and Julie and then we do everything in our means to make our family. We love you Jason, Devon and little Gabe! Can't wait to see you in person!

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Getting Old

My baby is 4.

Monday, January 14, 2008

The Prayer of an Airman's Wife

Greg sent me this today. As of yesterday he is the acting commander for the largest Contracting Squadron in the AOR. His commander is home for his 2 week R&R. Think he is wanting some prayers?

The Prayer of the Airman's Wife

Make clear my airman's path of victory,
That it is sure and swift.
Grant him strength of spirit and body,
That he may defeat each enemy.
Give him vision to see his duty,
That it is done as it should be.
And grant him comfort and peace,
That he may know his work is just.

But most of all, Lord, keep him safe,
That he may soon return –
To the family, country, and freedom
That his courage protects.

God bless America and
God bless my Airman!

Wednesday, January 9, 2008


Look at the ticker to the finally says DAYS!!! We are definitely on the down slope now. I am trying not to get too excited because planes always break and replacements don't always show up on time. Lots can go wrong and push his return back. Nonetheless, I have lots of different emotions. Excited to see him again and be able to just be around him. I miss the little things like grocery shopping or even riding in the car. I would do anything right now to have a conversation longer than 15 minutes! I'm also very anxious because his return means that life has to go on. I have become extremely attached to the kids in my class. I am not looking forward to saying goodbye to their sweet faces. Greg's return also means we have to confront our infertility issues once again. UGH! It is so draining just thinking about it. We do have our 3 frozen embryos waiting for their dad to get home so they can be used. When will we do that? No clue. Might not even broadcast it. If they don't survive, BIG decisions will have to be made. Adoption or another IVF? I am trying to put it all in the back of my mind, but it is hard. We do have a fabulous trip coming up which will hopefully give us some much needed time together. 30 days and counting....

Sunday, January 6, 2008

A Divorce Party?

One would think that having a party to celebrate a divorce sounds very odd. I guess when you say "divorce party" it does come off strange. Last night my friend Jen (left) hosted her first and ONLY divorce party. Just want to post a little shout out to her.

Jen, we all love you and are thrilled of how far you have come in the past two years. We are so happy that you have found yourself again and a man that completely and utterly adores you. You deserve the best! Here's to a new chapter of a brand new life for you and the kids!

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Top 8 of '08

I thought I would list my top 8 resolutions for the New Year. This month marks the 4th year of our journey to have a family. Therefore, we are entering year #5. Unlike every other year I am not going to sit here and say that this will be the year I get pregnant, or this will be the year our child is born. I can't do that to myself anymore. All I know is this will be the year we make some important decisions. Greg will return and we will have a little over 12 months until he heads out again. So here is my (our) Top 8 of '08.

1. Resolve our infertility. This WILL be done, no ifs ands or buts about it!
2. Continue exercising. Complete one of the following- Breast Cancer 3 Day Walk, Air Force Relay Team Marathon,or The Marine Corp 10K.
3. Find a church we like and attend each week.
4. Travel somewhere new each month- near or far.
5. Be a good friend without internalizing some one's problems.
6. Find a job that makes me feel good.
7. Live each day like he is deploying tomorrow.
8. Write my Top 10 Life List and check off at least one!

There it is, let's see how many I can stick to!