Friday, August 27, 2010

forever changed

Isn't funny how your life can change in an instant? One year ago today I received an email that would change my life forever. I was sitting at home alone in Ohio as Greg was in Afghanistan. I opened my email to find a message from our agency. They forwarded me an email from a birthmom instead of replying back to her on their own, they wanted me to read it because she had spent so much time and effort writing it. I sat on the couch balling my eyes out while I read her words. Shaking, I called everyone I knew and of course no one was home! It was early in the morning in Afghanistan so Greg would be the last to hear! I remember thinking it was the most beautiful words I had ever read. After contacting my agency, I emailed the birthcouple and the rest is history. As Cormick's birthmom said to me yesterday," It all turned out just the way God wanted it to."

Sunday, August 8, 2010

goodnight seattle

So many times, on this blog, I have said how blessed we are. In June, we flew to Seattle so Greg could meet Cormick's birthmother and her family. It was so important to us, that Greg meet them in person since he was gone when Cormick was born. The visit was wonderful yet emotional. As an adoptive mom, I struggle with many different feelings when it comes to Cormick. I feel a very strong sense of responsibility towards Cormick's birthparents. My main purpose in life now is to be the best mother to Cormick that I can be. Not just for our family but for his birthfamily also. I wanted his birthmother to see that we love this little boy more than anything. His birthfather was not up to visiting with us, but I hope he knows too how loved Cormick is. Whether it is now or years from now, my wish is that they can be at peace knowing they made the right decision by choosing us.
Cormick is not only loved by us, but he has a birthfamily that loves him too. When we said goodbye to them I cried all the way back to the hotel. In some sense, I feel like we have taken him from them. I know that his birthparents chose adoption, but I still was so sad. His birthgrandma gave him this book. I had our photographer take some pictures with it for them. Is he gorgeous or what? After all our struggles to become a family, we have been so richly blessed by this miracle! It was so worth it!

Thursday, August 5, 2010

god found us you

Well I have been a horrible blogger! Since my last post we have moved to Virginia and Greg is settling into his job at the Pentagon. I am settling in to being back home, not as a visitor, but as a resident for a while. Life as a stay at home mom is more than wonderful. I love spending my time with our gorgeous son. I wouldn't want it any other way. I waited six years for this blessing and I cherish every waking moment with him!
I can't believe he is 8 months this week. Our friend came and shot some great photos last week. If you have adopted and don't have this book, you have to get it! I believe that GOD did find us Cormick. When it was the right time, he brought Cormick's birthmother into our lives.
This picture brings tears to my eyes just like the book makes me cry every time I read it to him!