Friday, January 22, 2010

once an infertile...

As soon as we arrived home last week we went to base to have Cormick switched from the base in WA to our base for medical care. I was totally overcome by emotion as Greg and I walked down and around the hallways from one office to the other. Over three years ago I walked in those doors pregnant. Then a year after that I walked in as a fertility patient. Last week, I walked in as a Mom with this miracle in my arms. I just started to cry. It felt so weird. I turned to Greg and said there are so many bad memories here at this hospital and that it was really hard for me to be back. He, of course, reminded me that we are making better memories now. I know this and I wake up everyday feeling blessed, but like so many have told me, the infertility never goes away. It is a part of you that stays forever.

3 comments:

Jamie said...

it certainly is :) but we are stronger and better mommies because of it. thinking of you...knowing that same feeling your write about.....thanking God that your sweet little miracle is finally home.
xo
jamie

Lori said...

It is...and I agree with Jamie...it makes us stronger mommies who take not one single moment of our time with our darling little ones for granted. It is still hard when those feelings creep up on you. Dh doesn't "get it" but I know we mommies understand each other:)...Lori (resolve bb)

Baby Wanted said...

I know without a doubt because of your pain, you will be a much better mommy, a mommy who will never for a moment take her baby for granted. Your husband is right, you are making better memories!