the finale

It's over. I'm not pregnant. I knew last night after taking a HPT. As I was in the bathroom taking the test I peaked out the door and Greg was on his hands and knees praying. Talk about heartbreaking. I still had to go this morning and have my blood work taken just to confirm. The RE just called to give me the "bad news". We are devastated. We don't understand why this is happening to us or why we have to go through any of it. I am grieving the loss of ever having a biological child. I came so close once and I guess that is the closest I will ever get. I know we will move forward, but all I have now is over 20 bruises on my stomach, about 10 pounds to lose from all these meds and an empty bank account. I'm so sad.

the transfer

Today was the FET. Things went great! All 3 of our embryos survived the thaw and were transferred back into me at about 11:50am ( I looked at the time on the u/s machine!). Dr. G said compared to the notes from the last two transfers, this one went very smoothly. No matter what happens, we know we have done everything we possible could without sending us into bankruptcy! We had great results with the fertilization and now the thaw so I don't think we could have asked for anything more. Thanks for everyone's thoughts and prayers.