Thursday, May 15, 2008

the finale

It's over. I'm not pregnant. I knew last night after taking a HPT. As I was in the bathroom taking the test I peaked out the door and Greg was on his hands and knees praying. Talk about heartbreaking. I still had to go this morning and have my blood work taken just to confirm. The RE just called to give me the "bad news". We are devastated. We don't understand why this is happening to us or why we have to go through any of it. I am grieving the loss of ever having a biological child. I came so close once and I guess that is the closest I will ever get. I know we will move forward, but all I have now is over 20 bruises on my stomach, about 10 pounds to lose from all these meds and an empty bank account. I'm so sad.

15 comments:

Patti Rae said...

Our hearts are grieving with the both of you!

Stephanie said...

Oh Julie, I am so sad for you!

jmpoesch said...

We're thinking of you both - know that we're always here when you need us.

xoxo
Joanne

JJ said...

Im so very sorry

In Search of Morning Sickness said...

I'm so very, very sorry. You have every right to grieve.

soapchick said...

Came over from Lost and Found. I'm so sorry. I was just there myself 3 weeks ago. I wish you peace.

Kymberli said...

I am so sorry. You and your husband are both in my prayers.

akmomma61 said...

I am so sorry. You are in my prayers.

Katie said...

I am so sad for you. This sucks and I am sorry.

bleu said...

I am so sorry.

Ms Heathen said...

I came over from Lost and Found, and just wanted to say how sorry I am - you both must be absolutely devastated.

Julia said...

Oh Julie, I am SO sorry! I'm thinking about you guys.

Shelley Pridgen said...

Oh, Julie, I'm so very sorry for you and Greg!

seashell said...

I'm so sorry Julie. You and Greg are in my thoughts and prayers.

Laurie said...

Julie I just wish you and Greg the world of happiness. My heart goes out to you.