six weeks of pure love

Our beautiful son at six weeks. Greg is totally in awe and will not put him down. I have to remember that this is his first week with him even though it is my sixth. On Saturday we had our post placement visit. Next month the adoption will be finalized, so hard to believe. In the meantime, we are just thankful to have this time to spend together with our little man. I'm getting spoiled having both my boys home at the same time!

the 3 of us

Today we became a family! Greg returned early this morning from completing his 5th deployment! Our life has changed so much in the past six months since he left. So here we are the first picture of the 3 of us! It still does not feel real that this precious little one is ours to raise and smother with love for the rest of our lives! There were many times we thought this day would never happen and today it really did happen!

introducing...

Cormick Fitzpatrick born on December 8, 2009. Our Christmas miracle! He made a surprise early arrival, but we are convinced my Dad is behind this all! And my grandmother since he was born on her favorite number 8. When I have more time I will sit and write out Cormick's story. This little guy is so loved by his birthfamily and his adoptive family. I hope that this will help him grow to be a strong and secure individual!

showered with love

When I would think about losing my Dad, it was unimaginable to me. I thought I would never survive the loss. I would pray to God not to take him from me because I knew I couldn't handle it, and I know God doesn't give you more than you can handle. So surely, I wouldn't lose him. If it wasn't for this baby, this amazing birthcouple and all our family and friends, I probably wouldn't have been able to function this past month.
In the past two weeks, we have been "showered" with love. Our friends and family threw me two wonderful baby showers. One in Virginia and one in Ohio. This little miracle is so loved by so many people. He already lights up my life. I can't tell you how much the joy of adoption has helped me in grieving my Dad. I am amazed everyday at how blessed we are to be apart of this incredible experience.

daddy's girl

I lost my Daddy yesterday. The one and only thing I wanted more than a child was to have him here as I became a Mom. As I type Greg is on his way from Afghanistan. I don't have much to say other than I lost my best friend.

adoption group

I've been thinking a lot lately about our time here in Ohio and how much I did not want to move to the Midwest! Once again, I obviously am not the one in control. God knew exactly where Greg and I needed to be at that time in our lives. It's here where I have found the support and friendships that will last a lifetime. Here is a picture of the girls from RESOLVE that have chosen adoption as the path to build their families. We do lots outside of RESOLVE together, but this picture was from our monthly Adoption Group dinner. Our time in Ohio is getting shorter. We will have to move on to our next duty station in the summer. I am so grateful that they will get to share in our joy when we finally become a family, but how am I ever going to be able to leave? If any of you RESOLVE ladies are reading this, I hope you know how much I love and appreciate your support!

three years later

It has been three years today since we learned our baby had passed. They say time heals all wounds. I wouldn't say our wound is healed, but time has made the pain easier to handle. I do believe all things happen for a reason. I've never been able, until now, to understand the reason for our loss. Now I know if it wasn't for our baby, we would not be adopting and in the midst of a wonderful journey. Though we grieve the loss of our biological child, we are thrilled to be awaiting the arrival of the child that is meant to be with us!