hearts apart...again

Here we go again! Greg left Monday for his 5th deployment in 7 years. We have been married 8 years! At this moment he is still en route to his final destination in Afghanistan. Our adoption is an semi-hold right now. My prayer is that we will be matched while he is away and placed before we move next summer. I'm thinking I MIGHT allow myself to prepare some for a baby while he is away (might is the key word)! I'll keep you posted on how I do with that topic!

advocates

On June 25th, a few girls from my RESOLVE group in Ohio joined me in DC to participate in RESOLVE's Advocacy Day. It was an awesome experience. We visited our two Senator's offices and two Congressmen. Obviously, there was a lot going on that day with Health Care Reform. We were there to ask our state representatives to co-sponsor the Family Building Act of 2009 which includes infertility in insurance coverage. Even though we have stopped treatment, this cause is very important to me as we had no coverage for our IVF attempts. Hopefully, we made a difference and our voices were heard. So for all of you out there still pursuing treatments and still paying out of pocket for everything, know that we went and fought for you on The Hill!

17,608

That is how many hits we have on our online profile as of today. Kind of cool, kind of depressing since we aren't matched! These past few weeks I have definitely gotten the taste of what waiting feels like. In the span of two days last week I found out 7 people are pregnant. Lots of activity also going on with other friends that are adopting. Here I sit frustrated with our position. It seems like whenever we take a few steps forward , duty calls, and we step back a few more. Needless to say I am not looking forward to these next 6 months apart from Greg. It is so hard to keep the faith that we will be matched when it is our time. I do honestly believe that, it's just so hard with things are moving along for others.

makes me smile

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Here is a quick snapshot of a wonderful vacation!

a beautiful rose

Our family has had a rough couple of weeks with my parents car accident and the news that my grandmother had cancer. I flew down to VA Saturday morning, visited with her and my family and by Sunday morning she had passed. I am sad in many ways and for many reasons, but I am so angry at infertility and how it prevented me from having a baby while she was alive. We officially started the adoption process last year on her 85th birthday when we mailed our application off to Florida. I really really wanted her to share in the joy when we finally became a family. I never told her that we plan on using her name, Rose, as our child's middle name. I hate that I didn't say anything, actually we have kept our names to ourselves. I guess I figured she would be here to see it for herself. So Grandma, if you can read this, please know I love you very much. I know that you are with my little angel now.

parent profile

forgot to post that we are finally online! check us out

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**Update- Forgot to say that this is in addition to our that is at the agency. They started internet advertising to help speed up the process with the decline in birthmothers.

babymoon

So I have heard of people taking trips before their baby is due and calling it a "babymoon". Greg and I just returned from a cruise with our friends that we met at the adoption class. Seven days of bliss in the Caribbean! Can it get any better? I thought this trip would be our Babymoon, but it doesn't look like it was. Greg will be leaving in less than eight weeks for a six month deployment to Afghanistan. I have written to our agency and asked if they could not present us to birthmothers due while he is away. It's a tough decision to make, but we have been in this together since Day 1 and we both want to be together when we finally become a family. Luckily, with adoption we have a little bit of control over that. I'm hoping for another Babymoon in January 2010 when he returns home!