Friday, September 19, 2008

1691 and more

Today I mailed off the first of many home study forms! We had to complete Form 1691 which was basically a seven page application of who we are, where we have lived, worked and all that good stuff. There were tons of other releases and terms/conditions. Unfortunately, a little "night in jail" incident in college was brought back to the surface. I felt so embarrassed checking "yes" on the questionnaire and when I voiced that it didn't make Greg feel any better. Now I do feel bad for making him more self conscious about it. I started to feel very angry the other day, that we have to be looked over by a fine tooth comb while we are paying for an adoption. No offense to anyone out there, but when you birth a baby no one interviews you, checks your financial records, inspects your house or fingerprints you. Sometime it just seems so unfair. I am really trying to not get mad, not get frustrated or feel sorry for ourselves because I do know this has a happy ending.

2 comments:

Patti Rae said...

Tell Greg WE have all done things we are not proud of! You are correct about the having a baby statement, they should do that and there would not be so many babies born to STUPID people.......

Jamie said...

I think the process of filling out the mounds and mounds of paperwork is much like a roller coaster ride....my emotions went from excited to embarrassed to mad...over and over again. We have all done things that we are not necessarily proud of...how did you know at 19 that you were going to adopt and be scrutinized for every little move you made?? I know this can be so frustrating! Hang in there and know that these emotions are completely normal ~ let them out in whatever way you need to (just don't spend another night in jail!! :) :)